About SHELLY59

Hi, my name is Shelly.  I have tried to get my insurance co. to approve gastric bypass surgery for me and they will not do it.  I have diabetes, high blood pressure, hyperlipidemia, asthma, sleep apnea, ocular hypertension and they will still not approve the surgery.  I weigh 390lbs and am 5'6".  I take medications for all my health problems and sleep with a c-pap machine.  I have been morbily obese for 17 years now and have tried every diet on this earth.  I may loose a little weight and then I end up gaining all of it back.  I have been a single mother for 16 years and because of my weight, I have lost out on a lot of special times with my son.  I can't walk very far or do any activity that requires a lot of energy.  I'm so sick of my self.  I don't feel I'm going to live very many more years if I don't get this weight off.  I have worked all my life and put my self through college after my divorce, and received a 2 year medical assistant degree.  Medical Assistant's do not make as much money as you would think they would.  I have struggled year after year to make things meet.  My son has had three surgerys on his legs at the Shriner's Hospital in St.Louis, thank God for them.  He is still having pain in his legs and ankles and he will probably need surgery again on his feet.  It has all been so very stressfull on him and me.  I get depressed about my weight and over eat and it just goes on in a never ending cycle.  I feel almost like I've wasted all my years in obesity.  I don't want to waste the rest of my life.  I pray some times that I will win the lotery so I could get my surgery and help other people too, this is just dreaming and wishful thinking though, it's not reality.  I'm not some one who will beg for money, but does anyone have any suggestions out there.  I'm loosing hope.